anomalies

i like to think myself as a rational person, aware of my emotions and the cause of them, but when it comes to you, it just flies out of the window oversensitive perhaps, but you don't always tell the truth not that i expect you to - there's no obligation i don't suppose we feel the same way about each other after all loving one is already a mouthful i miss you and yet i don't am i afraid to lose your affection or my "closeness" to you either way it's still selfish isn't it holding on to golden thorns is what its like hurts to cling on but you can't bear to let go at least do try and make the effort and whoops i've fallen into the trap of expectations for the umpteenth time so its either unconditional or not at all guess what i've decided to go for