2 Bored Girls + A Camera

Since I spent my X'mas at home, I chose to spend the next day with Nava. Went to Daphne's luxurious bungalow for a post-X'mas party. The food was probably catered and her house was adorned with intricate glass trinkets such that it reminded me of a hotel. The ornate glass chandelier dangling in the middle of the spiral staircase was a touch I particularly liked. Soon after, we headed to J8 Delifrance to chill and cam-whore. Too much time + 2 girls + camera = narcissim in its full glory. I guessed we looked nice enough for someone to get the manager's handphone number ;).

Return from Cold-rea!

7 days in Korea have come and gone in a blink of an eye, leaving behind wonderful memories and a craving to be jet-setting again soon. The weather was a pleasant reprieve from the blistering tropical heat of Singaporebut I didn't take to well to the occasional near zero temperatures either. The tour guide was full of wit and knowledge, peppering the tedious bus journeys with his amusing snippets of experiences. Food generally consisted of barbequeued meat or steamboat. Initially I ate a lot, though as the days went on, I found myself getting a little sick of the rich flavors. The mountaneous and seaside scenery were quite breath-taking; then again, if you have lived in the concrete jungle that is S'pore for 18 years of your life, any scenery is stunning. Everland, the large amusement park we were supposed to visit, didn't thrill me as much as it would have if I was younger. Must be the onset of age...lol. Skiing was a blast and I think I fared pretty well for a beginner, considering I didn't fall down once during the multiple descents of the 50m+ slope. Ascending the slope was however, a painstaking process and I was sweating profusely in a few minutes despite the cold. Maybe I'll try snowboarding the next time round. Made several acquaintances and bought loads of delectable snacks and tidbits =P. It was a truly memorable trip and I can't wait for the upcoming trip to _______.

Fate, perhaps

I'm hopelessly naive to think that waiting long enough would bring us together. It's like an experiment, the right person being at the right place at the right time, and I am and had none of these. As you said before, if its meant to be, its meant to be. And it seems, it isn't. Feelings, fickle and fragile, might still linger after everything. In any case, I hope you find happiness with her, because you deserve it, and lay to rest that selfish part of me.

Prom

Would like to give a BIG thank you to Lestari for assisting with my prom makeup and sorry for rushing you needlessly. I think I almost didn't recognise myself with the olive eyeshadow, yellow gown and all=P. Strangely enough, I didn't feel extremely excited about the whole affair in the morning. Cabbed there with Joanna and Charmaine, all of us clad in pretty clothes and baubles, faces caked in make-up. Charmaine looked especially pretty, with the tiara, curls and Goth Lolita dressing. When I arrived there, familiar faces were rendered scarcely recognisable, probably due to the makeup, hairdos and exquisitely beautiful apparel. Think I looked quite nice that night =P. I hardly paid any attention to the programme, partly due to the annoying emcee-ing, and wandered the ball room taking photos. Narcisstic as it may sound, that's what Prom is about. After loads of camwhoring and a little dining in between, the event finally came to a close. For the first time, I went to Chijmes with some of my 3Q buddies and Joanna to chill out, before my dad gave CT, Joanna a lift and sent me home. Some photos are below and the rest are on facebook. Guess I'm still seeing white spots from all the camera flashes =P

Farewells

Held a surprise treat for Weilu because she's going back to China soon after prom. She was really delighted to receive the card and bottle of stars that we made for her XD. I wish her all the best in her endeavours and hopefully she won't forget us.

Beginnings

It's a time for new beginnings XD! Just went for driving theory not too long ago. Yes, Florence is on her way to burnin' rubber! Got back to fencing and felt like an absolute noob =(. And also, I have 2 job interviews coming up. Sure hope I manage to impress the recruitment agency folks into giving me that administration job =P. Best of all, on the 4th of December, the long awaited Prom will be here! Can't wait...

The End of All Things

The A level examiner told us we've earned the license to scream after the end of the Bio MCQ paper. Yet, as the students flooded out through the doors, it wasn't yells of joy I heard, but rather the steady buzzing of the cross-checking of answers. There wasn't a dizzying surge of euphoria, just a disorientating but not wholly unfamiliar sense of emptiness and what-next as the coming days suddenly seem like a year. A year whose days are long. The story usually ends when the vile dragon is slain, the lost treasure found, the fair maiden rescued. Still, there is no conclusion here, not even deus ex machina for me. It's the anticipation of the end which renders the path, no matter how arduous, bearable. Which deceives travellers into seeing an oasis in a sea of sand, not a mirage. Anyhow, too much free time is not an unwanted thing and I shall not fall prey to Boredom. Finally, I can engage in those small pleasures that make me feel truly alive =).

Whatever

It's a pretty apt name to describe the rest of this post. I've realise I don't really have an opinion on most issues. I don't mean those GP essays when you're forced to take a stand and expound your argument for the sake of that "A" grade. It's hard to write if you don't care much for and about something but since GP has come and gone, it's no longer an issue. There's a curious, almost callous detachment from events that have shaken the globe or Singapore; the brutal crushing of the riots in Myanmar, the repealing of Section 377A (at least I got that right) and others. Maybe I'm a cynic and the violence, intolerance and other vices that have plagued the globe will always be here to stay so why bother investing emotion? Or maybe, I'm just Singaporean. Yes, the government has done its job so well that eventually they will start wondering why no-one reads the Home Section anymore. I jest. But, truly it's odd. Why am I unable to muster more than a fleeting sympathy for the refugees of Darfur or probe into whether homosexuality should be condoned in Singapore? And I have a hunch that I'm not the only one guilty of this. My apathy puzzles me. Does it signify a dereliction in my mental faculties or a reduction in my capacity to show compassion for others? Perhaps its time, to delve deeper into the going-ons of the world, and in doing so, find myself again. It's time to start having an opinion, not for the sake of it, but because I truly care.

Cold Turkey

You, the lingering sweetness of a courtesean's faded perfume. Such cloying fragrance, such deathly stench as I let you, as ever undecided, flood my shattered senses. We are magnets in a slow, tangled dance, bone-weary gladiators circling the ochre sand that mayhaps has always been. This path to hell grows narrow, carelessly fraught with briars and thorns, unspoken words and festered feelings. Tarry a little! An insolent rose petal, gloriously blooming and carmine, spirals from the sky, coruscating.

The List

Here's a list of what I want to do after the "A''s

1. Fence
2. Learn to Cook
3. Work from Jan 2008 onwards
4. Travel
5. Read
6. Draw
7. Learn to Dance (Hip-hop)
8. Learn to Drive
9. Learn to Wakeboard
10. Get a nice, golden tan XD
11. Swim
12. Learn guitar
13. Play PC games

It's amazing how this has kept me mugging 4-5 hours a day despite tireless rants from the other voice in my head to give it a rest. Oh the power of dreams... =). Freedom is painfully close. I can smell it.

And oh 14. NEVER TOUCH A BLOODY SET OF NOTES AGAIN, EVER!

but of course, my RJ mentality or morality ensures that I won't.

18

Handphone flooded with SMS-ses! I felt kinda bad I couldn't recognise who was wishing me at times though =S. And thank you so much Charmaine, Shu Yi, Ching Ting and Philana for the lovely pressies =). Rest assured I'll use them XD.

Random Thoughts

It's funny how I've spent nearly two years in RJ and there will still be places I've never visited, canteen food I've never tried, people I've never spoken to. Maybe I was so focused on my routine that I didn't stop to smell the roses. I guess it's the same with people around us. We don't look too closely and see the nice, picture-perfect side of them beacuse the flaws are never too well concealed.

Void

There's a strange emptiness
where nothing should be
that refuses to go away
so why should I stay?

How can nothing feel so heavy?

Resilience

The end is nigh. The future is wreathed in possibilities. I hope for the best.

A Call

After 3 months, a call. I wasn't as excited as I thought I would be but enough to keep glancing at my phone intermittenly for the tell-tale buzz. The connection was pretty sucky and it was surprising, considering NZ isn't Timbuktu. Talk came easy, which I suppose is because we haven't spoken for 3 months and I don't think you've changed much. But silence, comfortable and familiar, started to seep in; not just a result bad connection, I believe. Well, it was nice catching up and it's good to know you like it in NZ. Until then, Eug.

Carcassone again!

Can't focus on reading Chem when I've got Carcassonne. Sorry Joseph. But you've got to admit Carcassonne is a hell lot of fun! Especially when you're pwning XD.

The 2 Excos

The long wait reminded me of a Chinese wedding dinner but the food was well worth it! All the more so when you're not paying. Indulged in communal dining (away with saliva consciousness!) cus eating half a chicken can get a bit boring on the buds. Played "Cai Quan" and watched with a perverse amusement as the losers cringed and made faces upon eating a piece of fry coated with....X + Y + Z + a lot of chlli sauce. Kudos to Lorraine, who ate one so Zi Shan wouldn't have to eat another. J1s need to learn to tie knots tighter so they can escape without paying the bill =P. Joanna being the only J2 left bound to her seat was quite a hilarious sight. Pooled again for the first time in ages and somehow the joy of scoring and winning wasn't really there. Maybe I wasn't in the mood. Or maybe I've moved on to other things.

Nat Day Celebrations

This will be a photo-post since I am too tired to blog. We all went craz-ee and had loads of fun!

the tree of infinite possibilities

People would be a lot happier if they could just quit fantasising about the never-was. It's time to prune the tree. Or wonder till you're driven mad, what would have happened if you had...

Gone Shopping!

It's torture being cooped up in the house mugging for 2-4 hours straight several days in a row (Curse you, prelims...) SO...I went shopping and cam-whoring with CT and Philana. Bought a pair of Ripples slippers and a nice silver patterned top! I'm not supposed to be spending so much really but some clothes just call to you, if you see what I mean. Took photos in Orchard library until the librarian told us to stop. Really love those gold-wired black stone earrings =P. Think we all reached consumer satisfaction levels today XD.